Kristy McMorlan
Fear Can Conquer You,
Or You Can Conquer Fear.
Finding Freedom
And Victory
My childhood was hurtful enough but a church hurt leaves lasting detrimental wounds associated with a place of refuge.
TREASURES​​​​​​​​​
In The Trash​
Oftentimes We Become Who We Think We Are Through The MIstreatment Of Others
As the daughter of mutual alcoholics, which resulted in a mother who struggled with her mental health, Kristy had to learn who she is, and how to overcome her past to expand her future; to become the person God already knew she was.  

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  1. Kristy's dad, as a young boy, and his family
    Kristy's dad, as a young boy, and his family
  2. Kristy's mother's drawing while in school.
    Kristy's mother's drawing while in school.
  3. Kristy's dad served on WWII PT Boat.
    Kristy's dad served on WWII PT Boat.
  4. One of Kristy's family's Trunk photo.
    One of Kristy's family's Trunk photo.
  5. Kristy's parents while dating.
    Kristy's parents while dating.
  6. Kristy's mother as a young woman.
    Kristy's mother as a young woman.
  7. Kristy's mother at age fourteen.
    Kristy's mother at age fourteen.
  8. A drawing Kristy McMorlan's mother did.
    A drawing Kristy McMorlan's mother did.
  9. Kristy's McMorlan's mother.
    Kristy's McMorlan's mother.
  10. The mysterious Aunt Clara as a young woman.
    The mysterious Aunt Clara as a young woman.
  11. Kristy McMorlan and her stuffed dog.
    Kristy McMorlan and her stuffed dog.
  12. Kristy's father as a young boy.
    Kristy's father as a young boy.
  13. Kristy's great-uncle and grandfather
    Kristy's great-uncle and grandfather
  14. Kristy's father as a young man.
    Kristy's father as a young man.
  15. Kristy's family's photo.
    Kristy's family's photo.
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1. I’m not who I once was.

Isn’t that a foundational belief of our Christian faith?

Change is inevitable. Growth is sought after. Repentance is a doorway to Grace.

Real change begins with admitting a need for Grace. Denial blocks Grace.

Unless a person acknowledges the problem, there is no hope for a cure, recovery, resolution, or healing. 
-McMorlan, K. (2018) "TREASURES In The Trash" Chapter 1 Understand Patterns

2. The truth is I had amnesia, I believe as a result of Mom’s mental health condition.

I likewise was traumatized by Dad as well as my ex-church leadership. I had repressed memories due to childhood trauma.

When I discovered this, I was a little prejudiced in my own thinking, wanting to keep the secret to myself.

I didn’t want labels, judgments, pity, or especially condemnation.

My childhood was bad enough with the parts I could remember; whatever happened in the parts I couldn’t remember frightened me.

I wasn’t fine, but if I was asked, “How are you?”  I’d answer, “I'm fine,” because I needed time to process and accept it myself before I could expect others to accept it.

I asked myself, “If I was narrow-minded in my own eyes, how was I ever going to step out of my own denial? 
-McMorlan, K. (2018) "TREASURES In The Trash" Chapter 2 The I'm Fine Lie

3. Dad frequently sought his own desires, rather than stepping back and being mindful of Mom’s and his children’s needs.

In my opinion, medication and alcohol shouldn’t have been mixed. Period. 

My parents’ priorities were unwholesome, and my childhood had lots of crazy mixed messages to sift through, in part because there eventually were four sides to Mom. 
 
  • 1. The one who was funny, personable, and creative. Mom could make the yummiest pie you ever had! Mom had a great smile. 

  • 2. The confrontational woman, which I still don’t think is always a bad thing. She could think on her feet and got things done. 

  • 3. The woman who sat in a darkened room and pulled the blinds.
  • This woman stayed hidden away, with little interest or interaction with others. She had a hearing impairment, which I believe influenced her decisions and eventual outcome.
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  • 4. The woman who had five friends only she could see, because after a while some kind of mental disassociation arose.
  • Possibly because her medication and alcohol shouldn’t have been mixed, and her abuse, which probably never got put in its proper place.  
-McMorlan, K. (2018) "TREASURES In The Trash" Chapter 10 Reactiveness
  
4. The elephant that lives in the living room, which everyone feeds but ignores, is generally on a rampage destroying people, places, and things.

I can see it but do nothing about it, as it decomposes onto my life, depositing corrosive material into my life.

It frequently brings my life to a mere shadow of what I believe it could have been, because the elephant in the living room goes unidentified and others accommodate it.

Why couldn’t something similar occur within a religious environment; I believe it did. 
-McMrorlan, K. (2018) "TREASURES In The Trash" Chapter 13 Unhealthy Guidance

5. In view of the possible condemnation I could receive for disclosing who my mother was, I was groomed by Dad to not talk about Mom.

Unfortunately, Dad may have inadvertently initiated a response and I had the worst happen; my ex-church leaders condemned me for the mother I had.

A mother who’d passed away thirty plus years earlier. 
​-McMorlan, K. (2018) "TREASURES In The Trash, Chapter 27 Triggers, Hot-Spots, and Stressors 
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